Adapting

I find myself surprised by how quickly things seem to pass. Today I was getting dressed and put my helmet on without thinking. I looked in the mirror to make sure my necklace was on straight and it took me a second to notice the bright green helmet sitting on my head. When I got the helmet, I thought I would never get used to it. Then it was this clunky big thing sitting on my head making me feel and look like a doofus. Then it was just another way for me to look and feel like there was something wrong with me. Then it was my version of an ever present reminder that I wasn't healthy.
At first I just got stared at. Then there were some snickers and whispering by kids and teens. I've had my share of stupid questions asked "Are you retarded?," "What's wrong with you?," and "You know you still have your helmet on?" I've had embarrassing moments because I'm wearing the helmet, but they don't matter. What matters is that when I wear it and faint, I don't get a concussion. I've realized what should have been obvious to me in the first place (if not ignored by my own self-consciousness) the way I look today doesn't matter, protecting my head from permanent damage does matter. I guess it just took me time to adjust my way of seeing it, but I feel like I got there. Now when someone asks, instead of being embarrassed, I explain that I have a heart condition that makes me faint and the helmet protects my head. Simple as that is, it both educates them and reminds me why its so important to wear.
So while I probably won't be winning any fashion shows today, I have the most important piece in my outfit proudly on my head. Its my crown of sorts. I am proud to wear it because it reminds me of everything I've been through and the fact that I am taking control to ensure that tomorrow will be better.

Its all about adapting to what you're given and making the best of it.